This Is Not Your Song.

Prose

Thursday, February 26, 2009

"I don't see why people bother to care about anything. All it does is hurt you in the end. All you did was make me like you and now I wish I never did because I don't want to miss you. I spend my whole ****ing life missing people. I'm never going to like anybody again."
"You're right there. It does hurt. Loving people always does hurt. It's part of the deal, I think."
"It hurts too much. It isn't worth it. I'm never going to like anybody again. Then I don't have to worry."
I watched him huddled on the floor of the closet.
"Yes, Tom, you're right about that too. If you never love anybody, you'll never have a broken heart. But Tom, that's not what hearts were made for."

"Boo remained such a dream child. As so many autistic-like children I had known, he possessed uncanny physical beauty; he seemed too beautiful to belong to this everyday world. Perhaps he did not. Sometimes I thought that he and the others like him were the changelings spoken of in old stories. It was never inconceivable to me that he might truely be a fairy child spirited from the cold, bright beauty of his world, trapped in mine and never quite able to reconcile the two. And I always noticed that when we finally reached through to an autistic or schizophrenic child, if we ever did, that they lost some of that beauty as they took on ordinary interactions, as if we had in some way sullied them. But as for Boo, thus far I had failed to touch him, and his beauty lay upon him with the shining stillness of a dream."

Both excerpts take from 'Somebody Else's Kids', by Torey Hayden.
Beautiful book. Especially to a sister with a sibling with special needs. Really taught me the true meaning of the word 'Patience'.

6:19 PM;

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash into the sea.

Look! There's a pot of gold in this house!

What a wonderful day to end my otherwise boring day.
2.4km, drills, running up the stairs.
[Start of the day]
We found out we had to report to our SOP classrooms instead of the hall. So we had to drag our bodies to the sixth floor.
"5th floor only ah?!'

[After Physics]
I had to dump my science textbookS in my locker, and take my e.math text. And we were pretty late already.
So we kinda ran a little, till we saw Desiree they all, then decided to walk up to the 5th floor.
Late for 2 seconds, stand outside for 20minutes.

My legs hurttt. ):
Oops I just digressed. Anyways I saw the rainbow on the bus, then started smiling like a lunatic.

Double rainbow! The sky was so gloomy, and in the middle of it, a beautiful rainbow :D

Why do all good things come to an end? ):

Ask HJ that. I told him about the rainbow, and at 8:30pm, he went out to check the sky.

Stupid where got rainbow. it's so dark.

What a genius, looking for a rainbow at night.

P.S.: Please do not comment on my ISO. Thank you. So pro fly over to my place come take la. Can take more picture worthy things other than lightning -.-
P.P.S.: I miss being sec2 ):
Alot

10:21 PM;

Monday, February 23, 2009

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

MATHS AND CHINESE DOWN!
I can't imagine I have to continue putting myself through the torture of sitting for yet another 3 times? (Or maybe more, if I ever get into a JC. I'd be so happy I'd be busy counting my blessings.)
My expression for the first and last passage was just -.^ all the way. Tsk.

Maths- I just hope nothing screws up *crosses fingers*

I can't believe I'm spending more time on my basil plant than my hamsters (Tecksiong is so gonna kill me).
(Proves my point- HJ, that I'm not hetrosexual -.- tyvm)

Speaking of which,

Hj really believed when I told him I was my dad. And smsed me somemore. LOL.
"Why is your dad using your msn?!"
"What the heck? Don't kid me -.-"
"Your dad was like "I'm sheryl's father who are you to my white daughter??" shit. your dad's kinda cute. He knows how to use smileys.. hAHAHAHA."

Thank you HJ, I'll laugh at you for that for the whole week :D

Ms Tay: Ya I took Chinese Literature during O levels. Disgusting right?

3:15 PM;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE AND ZHENLIN!

Joyce :D

My bee-eff!
Knew you since primary school, and whoa. We're Sec4s now!

All the best for your Os, we can do it! I'll always be there to hear you rant, so don't keep bottling stuff up. Like, not everything la.
You can write 'Joyce's reaction lag time' for physics and chem SPA, cause they vary from 5 minutes to an hour. Okay that was random.
Been great knowing you, going home together(sounds so wrong), ranting about stuff. And yes, I thank God for you :D

Have a blessed birthday, baby! :D

Zhenlin!

(I put this up cause in the few photos I have with him, I look really horrid.
Ah, for you people who can't tell the difference between Yuenkai and Zhenlin!)

Happy birthday Jie :D

It was fun bullying you in sec1. Xinping and I can still remember (vividly!) the two times you flared up. Dirty duckie. I can still remember how the guys imitated your voice in sec1, and couldn't change back when they wanted to -.-
You're a great listening ear, great person to rant to.
It's been a blessing knowing you. Enjoy your last few months being USM! :D
生日快乐！And jiayou for your Os (:

[I'm scheduling this post to publish at 12:00AM :D]

12:00 AM;

Sunday, February 22, 2009

-I thought my metabolism rate was going crazy today. Or that I had worms in my stomach when I felt hungry. Breakfast felt like an hour ago. And when I checked the time, it was already 3. I had breakfast at 930. No wonder. Studying traps you in a time warp.

-I'm still wheezing and coughing. And I'm taking the 'this may cause drowsiness' sticker on my medication as 'this may cause drowsiness'. There is a difference between may and will. So I'm telling myself that there's 50% chance that I won't feel drowsy.
I can't believe what I'm doing -.- Sounds so juvenile.

-I'm falling deeper and deeper in love with History day by day. After Valkyrie! (No guarantee that I'll pass with flying colours for this common test though. The way I answer essay's just to lump all the contextual knowledge together and not link anything. That's a killler.
On the other hand, I managed to get L5/10 for SS. Probably cause it was my first essay of the year, and Mdm J's just very lenient.

-My hand's gonna drop off with the 58 words that I have to write for lblz. And I have only 51. I'm so gonna die. Like which hardcore person chants chinese words like a machine gun and expects everyone to spot the word from this passage and get every single word? Ugh.
If my hand ever drops off, Street Fighter's gonna pay for my hospital bills.

-I am currently ear worming It's a New Day. And I don't know why.

-Next on the list, two NC16 movies. Let The Right One In and Slumdog Millionaire.
Oh, woe is me.

-Time flies. I'm celebrating even week with only one chinese lesson! :D
And around 35 people will be dead tomorrow. Cursed LBLZ. I want a white and gold coffin hor.

5:51 PM;

Friday, February 20, 2009

henry says:
oh please, you cant trick a korean

And I totally cracked up.
You know what happened in english class yesterday?! HJ started whacking me with his long ruler, and I retaliated. (Cherie was banished to the front of the class, and Qiuzhen sat next to me)
Qiuzhen went: "Why use ruler? Should use hand ma" And started les-ing.
When I tried to avoid her and leaned towards my left, HJ was there to whack me.
No wonder I can never ever concentrate during english lessons.
I better do, before my englishs digenirates two sheet. I betting is oridi is.
Worh.

Oh oh oh!
History sutdents/ lovers should totally watch Valkyrie! Really really good show. Couldn't stop ranting about it.

Norman: They don't tell you in your history textbook that Hitler only has one ball meh?

Movie's awesome. Really touching. Go watch it man. Oh yes, and do notice that out of [don't know how many children Tom Cruise has in the movie], only one has black hair, the rest are blond. And both parents have black hair.
Okay I'm being anal.

Supposed to go to my house to study.
But we ended up camwhoring.
Shit.

Because I'm really lazy.

1) Me: My hair's damn horrid la.
Yuenkai: Me too.
And somehow we ended up taking this shot.
2) 1
3) 2
4) 3(His face is cropped off, sorry!)
5) 4
6) 5
7) Lifting weights -.-
8) Self explanatory
9) Yuenkai did this
10) Camwhore!
11) My hair looks okay here ._. Shocking
12) I don't lnow why he did this to my hair.
13) Being retarded. Air kept going away through my teeth -.- Braces ah braces.
14) She looks like a chipmunk here.
15) Being retarded. Yet again.
16) twiiit w0rhzx
17) bimbo~
18) Candid. Me no likey my hair.
19) Ditto.
20) Ditto. Yuenkai looks like a dinosaur.

HJ's bugging me to hurry up with my blogging.
So yeah. Shall end here :D
Hello, korean -.- Please stop placing your handphone on your *, remember. There's radiation.

10:01 PM;

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

This was how I spent valentine's day!
Double dating. Math and Physics tuition :D

There was a bush fire opposite Bukit Batok polyclinic. All of us were choking from the haze and watched as ashes flew around the school, yet no one knew what happened till we passed by that area.
Pretty sad, we always blame the temple opposite whenever we smell the smell of something burning -.- Sorry worh!

You know you've gone officially bonkers when you donate 20 cents just to sign the names 'Joseph Stalin' and 'Adolf Hitler' on someone's jogathon card.
All Jeremy's fault. He showed me the card with 'Aladdin Chia' in it. And 'Billy ~~Warren~~ Teo Yu Run'. Half the names there were fake -.- Pinocchio. Righttt.

Do you know that HJ brings a mirror to school?

Don't worry, I'll tell Jacelyn you're really nice. And donated $2 today!
HJ really serves as comic relief in class man. Especially in chemistry!

Mdm Yaw: Ah boy don't ever make a woman angry. Especially an old woman! Now go empty dustbin!

He keeps giving me the cross eyed/ retarded look whenever no one's looking and when people stare at me when I crack up, he acts normal. And therefore, they think I'm crazy -.-

I. Need. To. Talk. To. You.
(No, I'm not being desperate)

8:44 PM;

Sunday, February 15, 2009

HJ's really gonna be the death of me -.-
Nothing nicer than signing in on a sunday evening and realising that you have homeowrk you've forgotten about.

HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
hey white and short girl
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
which article did you write about?
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
whattt
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
OH SHIT
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
I FORGOT ABOUT THAT
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
OH SHIT SHIT
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
DAM IT!
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
what are we supposed to do ah
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
shouldnt have told you
*DIGRESSES ABOUT JACELYN*

[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
EH
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
WHAT TO WRITE FOR REPORT
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
-.- you didt write it till now?
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
no -.-
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
you;re so dead
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
dont you have the question paper?
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
which question paper?
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
the one that miss lau gave us??
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
about some chairman kinda thing?
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
OH SHIT
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
THAT ONE AH
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
I THOUGHT IT WAS GROUP WORK?!
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
WHAT?!
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
wait, isn't that like situational writing or something.
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
i thought we have to do some newspaper report thing?
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
its a letter to the principal for godness sake
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
the newpaper report is the journal
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
shit
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
so which do we have to do
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
ALL?!
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
omg
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. says:
i'm like so screwed la -.-
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
screwed?
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
miss lau hardly scolds us
HENRY ------ Superman is in the building~ says:
she's forever" WHO is YI WEI?? remember you still owe me 2 sheets of work"

Note to self: please stop crapping with HJ during english class. TYVM worh.

10:27 PM;

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Ruth Tang Yee Ning
\r(u)-th\[rooth]
–adjective
1. discourteous or impolite, esp. in a deliberate way: a ruth reply.
2. without culture, learning, or refinement: ruth, illiterate peasants.
3. ruth in manners or behavior; unmannerly; uncouth.

Synonyms:
Anal

*
14 Feb 09, 13:51Clarence: LOL! When Leonard meets Ruth.
13 Feb 09, 21:26
Ruth: "Edible" is right, yes. And Grammar/ Vocabulary Nazism is always welcome.
13 Feb 09, 20:27
Leonard: Eatable? Shouldn't it be edible? Great, now I feel like a vocabulary Nazi.

*
(ETA: My Sunday School teacher, who is also my dad, asked us to find our "favourite" Bible verse-- that's religious homework for you-- and I think I have mine. Ecclesiastes 1:2, with: "Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless." Someone needs Thesaurus.com a lot.

Taken from Anal's blog.
Jiazhe/ Junyan/ Leon/ Leonard, please don't kill me.
But I've watched Benjamin Button with her. HAHA I bet you wanted to ask her out :D

Happy Valentine's Day :D

I'm still disturbed ):
Nicholasss. Why did you have to go to camp ): I needa rant real badddd.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue
I'm schizophrenic
And so am I

Oscar Levant

11:26 PM;

Thank you, you've taught me that I've trusted too much in people.
Something that I've learnt in sec 2. Twice. But I've gotten over it.
Thank you for reminding me again.

And a relationship based on deception and lies is just like a house of cards in the end. Eventually it all comes tumbling down.
Retribution- Jilliane Hoffman

Why do I still find myself giving you the benefit of the doubt when I know that I shouldn't? That you're probably lying to me, again. Like you always do.

I've trusted too much.
I'll live without you. So stop trying to spoil everything. And grow up and learn that not everything will go your way.
And please learn to give in.
Seriously, 你对的起她吗？
Do you even know I'm refering to you? Maybe you do. And you're probably smirking like an idiot at your computer screen.
Yes, I'm an idiot. I've trusted too much in you. No matter what else everyone said about you, I chose to believe in you.

I'm still waiting for the day for you to come clean with me.

I've got my priorities set. I do not have anyone above God. But do you?

10:03 PM;

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

trust
/trʌst/ [truhst]
–noun
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2. confident expectation of something; hope.
3. confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.
4. a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.
5. the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.
6. the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.
7. charge, custody, or care: to leave valuables in someone's trust.
8. something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.

Taken from dictionary.com.

What can I say? You've made me lose the trust that I had in you.
And so I thought...
Sometimes I really think I trust too much.
Lying. I can lie. But lying to my closest friends is something I can never do, and never understand why one would do it.

8:42 PM;

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Happy birthday Changyen!

Sec1 (Man I had to dig for these -.-)

ZOMG. We mapled together!

No comment.

Before YI camp!

Watched curse of the golden flower on 26th dec.

Sec2

Mission trip!

Sec3

P.S.: I Love You worh ^^

Watched Painted Skin.
姐姐，你找我吗？

Sec4

Changing room. (I know white and purple fbts look weird with white tops. Now shush)

I'm giving the *&@# face. Don't mind the other calefares.

There! Four years together!
(Notice we look less innocent each passing year. Why? Cause we're too lesbian to function ^^)
OOPS.

Happy happy birthday!
I love you, though you can be pretty anal most of the time. But hey! I'm pretty anal too.
We've got chemistry worh xD

Here's to more years to come, and I pray that this year you'll learn how to be much nicer and less anal and stop correcting people's grammar consistently. Cause you're not supposed to learn from me!
Nah really, I pray you'll grow in every aspect of your life (you're so not 162cm okayyy, and not grow horizontally too luh)

Oh yeah, thank you for consuming whatever crap I make. Everytime my pastries are overly sweet, you'll just consume them anyway.
I love you! Stop snatching salt away from me. Leave me to die from hypertension and you, from diabetes.
Muacks x3

11:35 PM;

Leadership conference!
Our last :D
But truth be told, I'll miss our batch of sec4s man. Always so nonsensical, and we'll go through anything together.

Twinniee :D

Same smile worh.

Siwei, when we were trying to take it off: 不要动 showchan la.

Officer:*singing some song* but he forget.
Changyen, ruth and I, at the same time: It's forgot.
How anal. Tsk

11:22 PM;

Friday, February 06, 2009

I have never ever chionged so much homework in my life, ever before.
But managed to clear everything by chinese- third period :D And I was punished for not writing quickly enough.
And tada, LBLZ the whole chapter! By the end of the day!
I had SPA, chemistry, then parade. No time at all. So asked one of those people who dropped HCL to help me.
CHANG YUEN KAI!
I owe him my life man. THANK YOU WORH

Oh yeah, the stupid thing I did today?
Spotted my chinese teacher calling me.
*Pulls Cherie and runs down spiral staircase*
And twisted my ankle.
She caught me, and reminded me of my LBLZ -.-

Gay, I can't even outrun my chinese teacher.

The effects of sleeping late has taken it's toll on me ):

11:24 PM;

Thursday, February 05, 2009

2E3'07 Changyen! says:
eh, so sunday can go your house? LOL
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
sachin says if you cook sambal kangkong for him, he'll marry you
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. >>> yuenkai zilian-ing in the girls' toilet. says:
wahlao
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. >>> yuenkai zilian-ing in the girls' toilet. says:
got how many people going
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
hahahah!
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
I dno
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. >>> yuenkai zilian-ing in the girls' toilet. says:
WHY YOUR BIRTHDAY GO MY HOUSEEEE
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
me, joyce, yk, zl, ly, sachin, jeremy
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
I thin kthat should be it?
[2e3'o7 SHERYL] Close your eyes and make believe. >>> yuenkai zilian-ing in the girls' toilet. says:
*censored*
2E3'07 Changyen! says:
cause you are to cook for me.

Can someone volunteer to take changyen out on a date on her birthday? Please?

7:13 PM;

Sec 4 life is busy busy busy.
And homework really depends on the teacher's mood -.- Ms Lau flooded us with homeowrk (40 pages of distinction in english, one essay, oral communication thing) cause she was in a foul mood.

Oh yeah, I cut my hair. Cause I wanted it short. Was really really sick of my fringe -.-
And I transformed from a sec 4 to a sec 2 in a day.

Sec4-ish

Sec2. Specs and teddy(hi daniel :D) for illustration purposes only.

But kinda feels weird not hiding behind my fringe from the world anymore ):
JEREMY! says:
you're an emo girl
JEREMY! says:
in an emo word

Orly?

6:51 PM;

& Sheryl Tweets.