This Is Not Your Song.

Prose

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I shall comply to ruth's tag. Because I'm feeling nice.

My desktop
Wallpaper-Deathnote. with L<3

Desktop Programs-
ACD stuff. Microsoft office tools. Skype. Itunes. HP photo and imaging. Piscasa. Recycle bin. IE. moz firefox/ IMVU. gunbound. Maplestory. Limewire. Windows live messenger. WMP.( I had to redo this whole list because BLOGGER screwed UP AGAIN)

Time- 11:17PM

Windows open-
Windows Live messanger
Convos: Liying<3, yiwei,apperently scolding me because I did not take my medication for my fever O.0
Jay-chou.net, blogger, ruth's blog
Itunes

And I tag-
# No one, I shall be nice even though blogger has not been nice to me.

Went off to work today. Now I know why my father offered to pay me 40 bucks per day. But the job seriously stinks. And I dont wanna go back tomorrow =( Its as boring as hell and I have to work my ass off. Grr. I hate artifical flavourings. And PSD. I hate chicken stock. I hate the mushroom concentrate. I hate vanilla. I hate melon and cantalope flavours. Grrrrr.

idowantogotoworktomorrow.i'mstillyounggg.pleaseeee.

Who cares about the 40 bucks?

9:05 PM;

Friday, October 27, 2006

Another end of the school year. Back in RG, it never failed to rain during the last day of school. It did threaten to rain yesterday, but rain did not fall really heavily, unlike back in RG.

First day in primary school. Loner. First friend was..naqiya? Suyee and jeanna fought with me to be first in line. Ahh the immaturity.
First day in secondary school. More or less stuck with eunice.

Last day in P6. Went back to school to find out which school we were posted to. It was pouring like hell. Thought I was gonna die when I found out that I got posted to bbss. I didnt even hear of that school before. Took a lift from serena's mother to go appeal for st margs. She later dropped me home.
Last day in sec 1. Cleared out my locker. Slacked in school for lunch. Went home.

Tomorrow's the walkathon =)

9:41 PM;

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Tagged by Liying. Think i've done this before. But I shall do it again =)

*7 random facts about me

'jay chou forever
'YULLIE
'cookie dough!
'absent minded =X
'cant live without music
'strawberry
'hardly gets extremely pissed,and when i do,its scary

*7 things that scare me

'being uncertain
'backstabbing
'spiritual attacks
'people crying
'people that are usually calm flaring up
'the thought of getting FAT
'living without music

*7 favourite songs at the moment

'give em hell,kid -mcr
'tui hou- jay chou
'cai hong tian tang-liu geng hong
'zhi dui ni you gan jue- fei lun hai
'make damn sure- taking back sunday
'my immortal- evanesence
'majesty-planetshakers

*7 people i fancy

'YULLIE
'jay
'aiais
'jies/meis
'changyen knows =)
'kairos
'e3 people

*7 things i say the most

'oo..kay
'shit
'oops
'dont lame la
'ohohOH x))
'xD
'wees~

*7 things i love most

'goong
'music
'hugs
'sleeping in
'saturdays xD
'friends
'6d<3

Today was the last day of school. Got back my report boook. The comments were....not true.
Sheryl excels in self-supervision(like real) and self improvement(oh yeah?are you sure?). She demonstrates strong self confidence(*cough*). She is an intelligent student whose academic results do not always reflect her abilities(i'm supposed to flunk all of my subjects). If she pushes herself harder, she is fully capable of achieving good results(ya ya.i'm not ruth).

Cleared out half of my locker. Will go back during the holidays to get that dictionary and sketch book out. Liying,eunice,esther and I stayed back in school for lunch. Wanted to stay till around 5. Until liying recieved a call from her friend. She then rushed off to meet her friend. So esther and I went home like good girls. =\ Eunice had ncc. Gosh. Will have to go back to school on the 3rd and 7th for robotics training. What holidays =(

11:20 PM;

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Light eh? Not bad.
Tomorrow is the last day of school! Joy!

Today wanted to talk to that girl to 'settle' stuff with her, since making enemies are not good for my spiritual life anyways. But I just cant bring myself to talk to her. Am I still angry at her? Argh forget it.

Oh yes, and right after I gave an encouragement card to yiwei telling him to stop saying vulgarites, guess what he did? Bingo. Say more vulgarites. No bad. Give attitude somemore. Apparently he thinks changyen and I will be afraid of him when he blows up. Too bad. Hor cy?

We had assembly today. Then held back la. Liying had an appointment with her friends and they just had to make us stay back. Shit them. If they want to punish people then why cant they punish the girls from 1e1 who were talking? Why must they make ALL of us stay back? But I pity the sec 2s the most. Always have to leave after we do.
We will have a camp next year at CDANS. oooh I cant wait. Yeah right. It will EAT into my saturday

10:06 PM;

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Fine. I shall blog.

Yesterday we watched deathnote. Yiwei takes 20 minutes to walk from school to the bus stop. Weiting and Zhenlin(as I had expected) ditched us. I have a strange feeling they had already made plans to go out with each other and enjoy their *ahem* twosome.

So thanks to somebody, we had to take 178 to westmall and then catch a cab to catch the 2pm movie. L's mannerisms makes him adorable. Light is just plain cute. Wahahaha.

But I shall remain true to my ryuk.Thats my dear<3

Ruth and I had a bodyguard when we went home. *Dry laughter*

Happy hari raya. Saturday is coming =) Il ove being random. I hate lollipops

6:41 PM;

Saturday, October 21, 2006

A tribute to cherie =)

as seen on my msn personal message
yuhao is shuai.LIGHT from deathnote is shuai-ER. LU is even shuai-er. god of death is the SHUAIEST. xin not nice. keXIN nicer x))

yuhao>just view twilight seven mv. He's the killer =)
LIGHT>

Lu>

shuai-est:god of death>

He's the one on the left*swoons*I'll beat you if you say he looks like a clown!*Growl*

I'd better stop these kinds of posts before I scare people away from my blog

10:58 AM;

Friday, October 20, 2006

Just came back. Went out for teppanyaki with my parents. Their anniversary. And just because of that, I missed my goong =(

Ate so much carbos I think i will balloon up to a pok kai sized freak by tomorrow. GROWL. My eye still hurts. I bet my mother thought I had gotten into a fight. I can't sneeze. I can't smile too hard without my bruise hurting. I've been doing weird things since I was injured yesterday. Like calling yaode hongzhang. Turning off my monitor and hard drive switch instead of the printer's switch. Not to forget using my tv remote control to off the aircon in my room. Thanks a bunch, yaode.

The bruise is starting to turn black. Its just a tinge. I hope it wont darken overnight. At least I can pretend its makeup gone wrong now.

The red mark you see is a cut. Nice one. Short and sweet. Just nice to give you a hell of ~~time~~ pain. Yes. It is swollen la. My eye isnt that small.

My father just came in while I was listening to My chemical romance.
"You mean your church encourages you to listen to these kind of music ah."
He is still shocked that the songs I sing at church are not as soothing as his.
And yesterday my mother wanted to see the neoprints I was scanning into the computer =.=

Why does the bruise NOT show up in the neoprints?

I mean, its now really swollen like what it was yesterday. The wonders of a neoprint machine. It makes my skin look whiter as well.

10:53 PM;

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Stayed back in school, since lunch in school was cheaper. Lingered around. Stayed outside the classroom. Had a mini war with the guys. Then bam- it happened. Yaode pushed open the door and it connected with my head. Ouch.

It started swelling half a minute after. Was so pain I almost wanted to cry la. Liying and Cherie brough ice for me, which kinda brought the swelling down. Hurts so bad. Then told wekiat to prank call yaode, and yaode passed the phone to his(guess who?) weiyan AKA xiao jiji.
weekiat:your boy bully my friend leh
weiyan:so?
weekiat: bb boy leh
weiyan: bb boy and gb girl mah. nvm de.
weekiat: but got baluku leh.
*weiyan hands phone back to yaode*

Yaode did apologise though. Sounded truely sorry. What if __ was the one who knocked onto me? I doubt he would even apologise. Grr.

Recently I've been going around to snap pictures of unsuspecting couples in class.
Ratio of guy-guy relationship to girl-guy relationship.
6:1

After the incident, I was still game enough to take a round of neoprints. I think the knock did cause some brain damage to me afterall. Just ask ruth how I behaved on msn just know.
My head hurts. The BLOOD CLOT is just directly on my eyelid =(

9:54 PM;

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

A nicer version of the class photo. What can I blog about? That changyen thinks that ________ is shuai? Along with cherie? Hmm. This would make hongzhang and yuenkai jealous

Maybe I should blog what I am doing now. I am currently breathing polluted air. I am listening to 'the freedom we know'. Erm. I've just finished watching princess hours. And.. weiting and I are argueing on which guy looks cuter.

He thinks the one on the left looks nicer. I think the one on the right looks cute. He thinks that blackie looks more *quote*man*unquote*.

Shayt. I think I have caught changyen's bimbo disease. I dont wanna go to school tomorrow. I woke up at unearthly hours just to make a kite which we had highly doubt that it would fly in the first place. Wow. How interesting our post exam activities are. Lets go fly a kite. And get a free suntan while you're at it. Expose yourself to colourful language used when people's kite failed to fly.

Played truth or dare. Asked questions like," who do you think is the shuai-est cartoon character?"
"The mulan that guy."
"Aladdin."
"You know the three guys in mulan? The "something something something i forgot."
"Who is the shuai-est male singer?"
"James Blunt."
"Micheal Jackson!"
"Who is the shuai-estguy in super duper sumos?"
"The ang moh guy!"
"The blue colour one la."
"Ya"

As you can see, we were preettyy bored.

8:24 PM;

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Woke up early just to go to church. GROWL. Wanted to wake up at 7.15,yet was woken up at 7. DOUBLE GROWL. Even 15 minutes seem like a very looong time during the morning.

Today's sermon was something about nurturing the child. How not to lead them astray.
-no Critizing
-respect
-something that starts with 'I'
-love?
-dunno
-r
-e
-don't nag

Seriously dunno the rest. I was about to sleep. Right after the sermon, guess what happened to my parents? Started critizing and nagging. WOW
And I blackmailed my father. I asked if I could go to mission trip in front of his friends. Of course he had to say yes (:

Yesterday was..indescribable. CHERIEEEE.*Beams with joy* Still can't get over the fact. Anyway. Yesterdays dinner was ok. More vegatbles than meat. But i'm not complaining. I almost choked on a piece of lettuce while laughing at the guys throwing around chicken in the biscuits. Is it chickens in a biscuit or chicken in a biscuits? Whats the pural form of chicken in the biscuit? Anyway, they where throwing it up in the air and they tried to catch it with their mouths. I got really distracted and started laughing.

You would never know how nice rum and raisin is until you only have green tea and rum and raisin ice cream left in your freezer. The last time I went to haagen dazs, rum and raisin tasted like cough mixture.

My second helping, and i think i am getting drunk..weeee~~ lalala.ruth. ELMO LOVES HIS GOLDFISH HIS KRAYONN TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.TJAHTS ELSOMS WERLDDD!!!

9:10 PM;

Friday, October 13, 2006

The 9 minute long mv of twilight seven. Yuhao from NQMM AKA the killer is cute xD

Made up my mind, shall not bother about her anymore. No matter how much misery she gives me. Live,and let live.

Got back my results. My father didn't scream. He didn't look too happy as well. I improved 10 marks for my maths! I didn't fail science. I would die if I did. Changyen beat me for english. Win le la. Its SHE who screwed up my oral. SHE. Started jumping and making weird faces and making rabbit ears behind Mr Foo. Of course I would crack up. Sheryl cracking up during an oral exam=loss of marks. And what about her? Since the topic was about family, I'm pretty sure she was like," I wanna start a family with _____.We may face many difficulties but I'm sure true love will last. We will live happily ever after and no one will break us apart, because the love between us is too real. You know how the song 'truly madly deeply goes'? I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply too. Yadayadayadayadayada."
No wonder Mr Foo gave her such high marks.

Mr Lee still could SMILE when he gave out my chinese paper. SMILE AT ME. =] I'm not blaming him. He didnt look like he was taunting me. It was a look of sympathy mixed with a I-know-exactly-how-you-feel. Fine, I failed my chinese paper. But my other components pulled me up. I think I passed

Argh.Damn the stupid results. I just finished a fanart. xD

Its saturday tomorrow! Wee~

How do you feel abnout the mv of 'Welcome to the black parade' ? I personally think Gerad Way looks way too weird with white hair. His new hairstyle is ugh. Prefer his old one. Their style of music is more or less still the same. Albeit lighter. Oh well

7:25 PM;

Thursday, October 12, 2006

I just noticed that my right ankle is more or less swollen, thanks to Hongzhang and his wonderful kicking skills. I hope my kick has given him a cast or something. Teambuilding skills, my foot!(pun intended)

Why do people still have faith in me,that I can do well, that I can make it? Cherie does, so does Yiwei. So does Liying.
I have zero faith in myself, I know I will screw up in everything I do. I will lose the race. Everything has a 0% chance of me of succeeding.

Tomorrow is the day. My fate depends on it. Whether I can go to mission trip or not. By now, I highly doubt so. Its surprising how I have not jumped off a random building by now. The only thing that keeps me away from jumping off random buildings is the fact that people have the faith in me, I should not let them down.

Will I, I probably will.

I will screw up in everything I do, by sec 3 I will drop to NT. By sec 4 I will drop out of school. When will I die? When will my misery end?

11:36 AM;

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Should I let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over

How could I have burned paradise
How could I - you were never mine

So don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind

12:53 PM;

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

I'm losing everything i had
i'm hurting
i'm sick of you
i hate you

Post exam activities pretty much sucked. The only good thing I did there was kicking hongzhang really hard. I could hear him screaming away.

There is something hidden deep inside everyone of us. We fear the unknown. You wont know what would happen in the future. You wont know how every story turns out until you get to the ending. In any moment, everything you know might change. You will no longer be secure. Wait-were you even secure once? Backstabbing always happens, you dont know who you can trust. Sometimes even your closest friend betrays you. Were they even that close in the first place, or was that just a mask from everything,reality?

Now I know why some people list their jie meis and whatever shit and at the bottom,write "dont steal them away."
I used to think that it was plain stupid. But now I get what they mean. You would never know how betrayal feels like until you have tasted it.

The blood that has gathered on my lips after biting it hard tastes metallic. I'm no longer sure what will happen in the future. Will I lose everything that I had? The insecurity lingers.

8:55 PM;

Monday, October 09, 2006

I'm waiting for the night drifting away
On the waves of my dreams to another day
I'm standing on a hill and beyond the clouds
The winds blowing still and catching my doubts
I'm hunting on the night the slave to my dream an illustrated seen decends in the sleep
We're playing for the fights emotional games
I'm turning off my eyes and hiding my shame

A neverending dream a dream of you I believe I recieved a sign of you
tonight I want to hide my feelings too
as you do and I want to be with you

I'm waiting for the night drifting away on the waves of my dreams to another day
I'm standing on a hill and beyond the clouds the wind's blowing still and catching my doubts

I'm watching all the flowers dying away
inheated breath of life at the dawning day I'm waking up in spring and kissing your face the sweet imoving thing I feel your imbrace

A neverending dream.......

A Neverending dream a dream of you
I believe I recieved a sign of you tonight I want to hide my feelings too as you do and I want to be with you

My father shooed me up to use the computer.
"Go up go do your chatting."
"Dowan, I'm sick of the computer."
"Just stop watching these kinds of rubbish shows."

I've been brought up with parents who think variety tv shows are 'rubbish shows'. Everytime when I go over to my cousins house when I was young, I would be sticking with my cousins,watching tv until my father/mother comes in to ruin the fun.
"Sheryl feels that these shows are rubbish shows as well. Don't watch le la."
Or something like that.

My father is more westernized while my mother is..the kinda typical singaporean. Sales, singlish,bargains etc. My father is the total opposite. Oh well

I'm bored of the holidays when the holidays have not even started. I miss the feeling of slacking when you are actually supposed to study. Love it. Staring into space is not fun when you have finished your work. It is always nicer when you have undone homework/supposed to do homework.

Its amazing how the human brain works.

Maybe I should go start learning how to feed llamas or something like that for my holidays.

9:14 PM;

Last paper. Art.
Went out with changyen chanel and ruth. Together, they sucked me bankrupt.

Cherie is not updating. So I should not.

Just a quick one today.

5:27 PM;

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Had fever and flu yesterday. The only time you get to see rudolph in genting.
PSI reached 150 last night. Hope it continues to be at unhealthy level tomorrow. School would be out and I get another day off ~~to slack~~ to do something productive.

Rudolph got a banana at church yesterday. Rudolph then drew on the banana with her trusty zebra marker. Rudolph got to eat pizza yesterday for dinner. Overall, Rudolph is a very happy reindeer. And only Cherie knows the reason. *Bursts with joy*

Stupid haze. It came only after we had the exams for our important subjucts. Who needs to study for art anyway? We already have the blessings of Art Costa already. Should have came during science or maths. Stupid indonesea. Win already la. Didn't burn down trees earlier. Must burn after exams to prevent us from skipping school.

Woke up at 8.30. Lazed around in bed. Nobody could shoo me out of bed anyway. Mum and dad are at church. Brother tagged along as well so nobody could burst through the door and start singing.

Uploaded it as a video for your viewing pleasure, along with the original song. Two photos only, as I'm lazy.

Then proceeded to bake lemon meringue pie. Wanted to bake baked alaskan surprise but surprise! I ran out of ice cream.
The meringue turned out quite ok though.

And its only 12.51 pm now. *Gasp* still can't believe i woke up THAT early

12:20 PM;

Thursday, October 05, 2006

On the way home, I noticed that my surroundings were extremly hazy. Looked all blured. Then I looked up.

The only time when you could really see the suns rays.
Usually the only thing you could see was one gigantic mass of light that simply blinds you.

Its the end of exams. Well the important subjects at least.

After the end of paper, I went over to Cherie's house. Played at the playground. Prank called a certain somebody. Yeps =)

Then went on to westmall to meet weekiat for tuition. Bought my brother a card for his birthday. Bet he is tearing it apart and drawing on it right now downstairs. ~~Waste of my money~~

By the way check out N4TH4NJ4Y's remixes on youtube. He's really talented

6:16 PM;

Monday, October 02, 2006

What happens when you cross this

with this

and this?

answer.

Stop gawking at the fatness of my legs.

Couldnt finish chinese today.Oh well.
Tomorrow will be fun!
Then the day after....
Then the day after the next will give me a brain flu.
Then the day after the next next will be fun. 840! Weekiat. I need your help her.
The it will be saturday! Cherie and I can gush over how talented drummer boy is again =)

I SEE THE FUTURE
SHINE ON MEEEE
DARK AND GLOOMYYY
OF THE TIMES TO BEEE

Too much animal farm? Or just the exam stress?

Labels: SATURDAY

3:04 PM;

Sunday, October 01, 2006

1ST OCTOBER
-XIAO ZHEN & ZHIWEI'S WEDDING! woots!
-YINGYING'S BIRTHDAY!

Sad, can't go to xiao zhen's wedding. I'm stuck at home =( Oh well. Just wish the cute couple the best. The couple who both wore lime green shirts yesterday. =)

Oh yes, I fell yesterday. After service, people started to leave the hall. I walked past two guys who were piggybacking each other with Cherie behind me. The one guy fell, and cause the other to fall. I was just right next to them and I fell as well. Curses.
I complained la. While complaining to my mother, I just realised. Thank God it was I who fell, not Cherie, she was right behind me. Thank God I was there to block the two hippos from hitting their heads against the metal chair leg. Or it would have been bloodyyy. Probaly cant do well for EOY eh? Thank God it was just my leg that was injured.

It still hurts though =(

We sang 'running after you' yesterday! WEEE~ End results= a happy Cherie and a happier Sheryl.

Better go back to mugging. My tuition's in an hour's time.

THERES FONDUE AT THE WEDDING =(
I WANNA SEE THE VIDEO WE FILMED =(

2:43 PM;

& Sheryl Tweets.